October 2009
1 post
Oh man, do I FAIL or what at updating this thing? But I have excuses. Soooo…I moved to Raleigh, started classes, started working at an internship, did a play, partied a little, went camping (had a fucking blast), had a birthday, saw an opera, and tomorrow I buy a new camera. I’m at home now for Fall Break, which is fine-I’m getting a break from school at least. But I have a...
August 2009
8 posts
“One’s real life is often the life that one does not lead.”
– Oscar Wilde
so.angry.must.not.explode.
i hate being ignored. intentionally ignored. i understand people are busy. but i know that i am being ignored, treated as if my concerns are the product of an overactive imagination.
so i think i’m probably just being led on. for five months now. i think anyone in their right mind would have thrown in the towel after a couple weeks of this. glutton for...
July 2009
30 posts
oh golly day. im becoming my mother. i’ve been becoming my mother.
no seriously. since i’ve been away and come home again, i see how much alike we are. and i’m oddly happy about it…im not sure what to make of that feeling.
like…she has her issues…and there are things about her life that I don’t envy…at all. and i think i have some of those...
Love horoscope for Monday:
“You are experiencing a lot of confidence right now, Libra when it comes to your romantic affairs. Now is the time when all eyes are on you, and you are experiencing the moment you have been waiting for. If you are attached, this is going to startle your partner somewhat, but this situation will put your relationship on a level that neither of you may have...
“It was on my fifth birthday that Papa put his hand on my shoulder and said,...”
– Sam Levenson (via oncealways)
gah. same shit. different day. when will i learn?
Got up soooo early today to have my eyes poked and prodded. Well, sort of. I mean, it was just a routine eye exam, but really…shining bright lights in my face before 8a.m. is just cruel. Luckily they found out my vision is getting worse and I need a new prescrip. I’m trying to convince Mom to buy me some glasses, but I’m not sure it’s working. Maybe I shouldn’t...
graduate.school.freak.out.
is there any chance i can stall any longer? am i disappointing people who matter if i don’t go right away? what.the.fuck.
i wanna crawl in a hole and not re-emerge until i’m fully confident in what career i’m actively pursuing.
right now it’s like just shooting away in the dark. i feel like i wanna go a certain route, and inevitably,...
http://www.asylum.com/2009/06/17/awkward-family-pho... →
For anyone concerned their family is significantly stranger than any other family.
Yes it is Friday night and yes I am at home. Big surprise. LOOOOOVE working and not making money.
Finally finished creating my resume…now to send it off. I’d love it if I had been savvy enough to pursue a business degree…they’re the only majors who get paid internships on the regular. Darn you business people!
I think I’m gonna try to locate an old disney movie...
Sending pizza to unsuspecting hungry people is good.
I’m ready to be back in school already. Well, sort of. I kind of go back and forth between wanting to be back in school and see my friends and freaking out because I know I have to take the GRE, apply to grad school, figure out where life is going, etc. GAH.
Being back in school represents a whole host of adult decisions I have to...
My extended family sucks. Like even worse than my immediate family. Which is saying a lot.
I think within 5 years the only ‘family’ I’ll have will be my Mom (assuming I’m not married). And I don’t feel very sad about that. Which sounds horrible, but my extended family, and a certain old, senile, lying, manipulative bitch who poses as my sweet, darling granny to...
I blossom in summer. I really do.
I’m glad I know that to it’s fullest extent now. Well—I know it to what I can only assume is its fullest extent.
You find out when your peak time is after you spend six months in weather that is the opposite of your peak time. I’m not complaining. I’m extremely happy it happened.
But now I know, I mean really really really know...
Headed to the beach with the madre today. It was swell. Nice weather, made it in to the ocean for the second time this season. Had good conversation and beer, so no complaints there. And a nice steak dinner. A nearly perfect day.
Started memorizing lines for my next show which I’m pretty excited about. This show contains a lot of good commentary on relationships, and I’m excited...
My life has remained relatively drama free for a little while now and that makes me happy. I don’t trust it to remain that way is the problem. Life seems to go well for a while, until I get comfortable and happy…then mass hysteria. I wonder if I’m the problem some days..
On the home front, I seem to get along almost too well with my parents for once. I still disagree with...
I’m trying this out. I kept a livejournal for a few years but I eventually left it to drown into obscurity. I tried blogspot for my travels and quickly gave that up…it was supposed to be shared but the idea never really latched on amongst my friends. So on to Tumblr. Which I already like a lot more than livejournal or blogspot.
My golden retriever Callie had to get her stitches...
